The Cage

This is a poem I have been chewing on for a while now. A long while. It’s a different side of my writing that I typically keep to myself in my journal, but this one keeps coming back to me. It is a comfort when I wonder if I made a mistake in leaving or when I need release from the hurt that lingers.

While God has given me freedom from the toxic relationship that fed this poem, I pray it might give others hope. Malice disguised as love is a cruel cage, one we often allow ourselves to stay locked in. You can free yourself from the cage, from that relationship that seeks to crush you. Finding freedom starts with simply choosing to stepping outside of the lies and see the truth: this is not what love looks like.

The Cage

You’re too kind to attack
So I’m not allowed to fight back
Lest you be proven right
That I was the villain all along
Somehow my feelings matter less
And my perspective doesn’t exist
If I want this to last
If I want to stick around
It’s exclusively on your terms
With only your hurts
And I’ll take every fall
I’ll crawl
All the assumptions and unmet expectations
You’ll be the victim again while I lie here beaten
So don’t cry
Don’t cry, you say
There is no blame to share
Only my apologies if I want to hold on
To this thing we’ve built
And what is it, really?
What does it matter if the way we survive
Is with abuse and pain?
What is there to save?
Except the slave

4 Comments Add yours

  1. Ken Amelio says:

    A beautiful, yet heartbreaking poem. When someone is in an abusive relationship, they can often be the last to realize it. It’s sometimes doesn’t matter that others are telling you that is bad, so long as you think that the fault still lies with you. I am very thankful that you were able to see the truth of your situation and break free. For a while, it seemed every time you’re about to you’d get pulled back in. Now, I just pray for healing for you.


    1. epauthor says:

      Thanks, Ken! I am very thankful to be free from it and able to press on to bigger and better things 🙂


  2. This was very haunting and makes me very happy to be single right now… as you said, let’s press on to bigger and better things!! 🙂


  3. Sadah says:

    This is beautiful.


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